The fear that lives inside of me
Being invisible to the world
Growing tired of explaining
Lost and broken on the floor.
Stealing life’s happy moments
Forever changing who I am
Nothing left but hate and fear
A life you’ll never live again.
Building up internal walls
Shutting out any glimpse of light
Faced with an uphill battle
That I’m not strong enough to fight.
Internally I fill with anger
Regrets and more self doubt
Losing hope along the way
And shutting loved ones out.
I’ve become a stranger to myself
Unable to recognize what’s inside
In fear of facing a hopeless life
My eyes close wishing I would die.
March 16, 2016